I live in a bubble. I call it Jessicaland.
Part of it is from my easily-distracted nature.
Three times in my life (as a child, in my early twenties and again in my thirties) I have been officially diagnosed with ADHD…..I call it “OOOh, look! Squirrel!”
Once I had kids it got significantly worse.
For example, I was physically present at church Sunday (yesterday)…but I couldn’t tell you what the sermon was about, who is on the prayer list or what songs we sang. (Sorry Preacher. I promise I try.) I CAN tell you Claire took her shoes off three times, kept her eyes open during the prayer, and laid down on the pew once…And it was hot in the sanctuary. I might have taken my shoes off as well.
Because of this sometimes I miss socially important things.
Like the name of the nice lady I talk to every Sunday (I friended you on Facebook yesterday after church when my husband told me your name)
Like the fact we actually do have classes at our church on Sunday night.(I’ve been a member for 12 years and missed that!)
But anyway. I probably look like I’m snooty. My husband says often my face looks like I’m mad. I promise you I’m neither.
I’m a decently educated but mush-for-brains working mom trying to make sure I’m kind of holding it all together so my kids learn to act with at least a small level of decorum and a large amount of kindness.
My favorite part of blogging by a long shot is people I see regularly in life but don’t know very well, opening up and sharing their stories with me.
How a photo I took reminds them of something from their childhood.
How my kid eating cereal reminds them of raising their kids.
Thank you friends. Thank you for commenting, for sharing your stories and for talking to me.
Thank you for reaching out and making me part of your real-life community. I love you for it!
Happy Monday evening friends.
Besides my kids, I’m not genetically related to anyone in the state.
That made me lonely for a long time…I wanted to raise my kids in a “village” by which I mean looked after and loved by many.. And by loved, I mean loved enough to be corrected when they aren’t living up to their potential.
I prayed about the situation, felt sorry for myself, and tried to make friends. (Mostly felt sorry for myself)
Recently I had a chance to look around and I noticed.
Friends that will correct my ratbabies firmly, gently and guide them the right direction.
Grandparents that love them fiercely just because. If my girls learn to see themselves through their eyes they will never want for self esteem.
Daycare/Preschool teachers that encourage and support only the best behavior, and my kids are learning to rise to that challenge.
Church friends that encourage, support and love on us, and teach Caroline and Claire about God’s love.
A warm, caring and loving father that loves them more than his few words can ever fully explain. Luckily his patience and good nature shout love, and it is visible how safe and special they feel when Lynn is around.
I realized this week, I’ve got my village. My girls are surrounded by kind souls that show them love, guide them and spoil them a little. As they grow, I feel so encouraged that all these people and all their collective wisdom will be helping us navigate the future. It makes being a mom a little less daunting.
AND I know that if they ever act a-fool in public when I’m not there, somebody is going to call me and report.
So thank you my not-genetically-related-to-me village for being my family. You are there when I need you most!
Thanks friends for reading.